24-year old Pax Tate is an asshole.
He’s a tattooed, rock-hard bad-boy with a bad attitude to match.
But he’s got his reasons.
His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with guilt although he doesn’t understand why. What he does know is that he and his dad are left alone and with more issues than they can count.
As Pax grew up, he tried to be the kid his father always wanted; the perfect golden boy, but it didn’t work. His dad couldn’t overcome his grief long enough to notice and Pax couldn’t keep up the impossible perfect façade.
So he slipped far, far from it.
Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the ugliness, the black void that he doesn’t want to deal with. If he pretends that the emptiness isn’t there, then it isn’t, right?
And it’s never more apparent than when he meets Mila.
Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air to his hardened frown, the beauty to his ugly heart. He doesn’t know how to not hurt her, but he quickly realizes that he’d better figure it out because he needs her to breathe.
When memories of his mother’s death resurface from where he’s repressed them for so long, Mila is there to catch him when the guilt starts making sense. Mila is the one…the one who can save him from his broken troubled heart; from his issues, from the emptiness.
But only if he can stop being an asshole long enough to allow it.
He knows that. And he’s working on it.
But is that enough to make her stay?
**Please note: If You Stay contains mature subject matter such as drug use and sexual situations. It is intended for mature audiences.**
You can find my review of If You Stay here
I had the pleasure of sitting down with Courtney recently for a little wine and girl talk lol!
Courtney welcome and thank you for coming, I’m excitedyou’re here; please sit and make yourself comfortable!
Can I get you anything? Water? Coffee? Wine? I’ve got abottle of Moscato and Sweet Red chilling in the fridge.
-So Courtney, how are you feeling now that If You Stay isfinally released? I know how excited you were in the days leading up to itsrelease; has the excitement level changed?
First, how did you know that red moscato and sweet red aremy faves?? Let’s crack open one now, shall we? And thank you for having mehere! You know I love you.
Okay. Um. Yessss. I was very anxious for IF YOU STAY to release. I’m impetuousby nature and it was killing me to wait. To be honest, I’m still fairlyanxious. I just want it to do well.
-Can you tell us where the idea of If You Stay came from? Plot? Characters?
Pax is very loosely based on someone close to me. Hispersonality and his habit of using drugs to escape reality. The story sort ofevolved when I remembered a news story from some years back about a youngmother and her son and an intruder. In their case, they managed to get away. Ifound myself wondering what would have happened if the mom had died- whatissues that would have given the son- and that’s how If You Stay came about.
-I absolutely loved everything about Mila but I have to ask,what in the hell possessed her to give Pax CPR??? There’s no way I’d be doingthat with his vomit mouth! I would’ve called 911 and waited (along with pokingPax with a stick from time to time lol)
Haha. I’m probably with you. I remember this one time, myhusband and I were driving down the highway, minding our own business, when thecar in front of us suddenly swerved into the median and rolled. I didn’t wantto go look inside- so I sent my husband while I called 9-1-1. If I’d beenalone, I would have looked. But those husbands come in handy sometimes…
But anyway, Mila just started moving before her brain couldeven think about it. If she had thought about it, she might have decided it wastoo gross.
-Will we be seeing any more of Pax and Mila in the future?
Yes. I guess now is as good a time as any to announce thatthere will be a second book, IF YOU LEAVE, which will follow Madison (Mila’ssister). You’ll see appearances from Pax and Mila.
-Courtney, you’ve written about a TON of sinfully sexy men,any one favorite?
(I know I can’t choose, for me there’s Dante, Quinn,Luca, Colby, Alex, Pax) I’m sorry my mind wandered a for a minute, back to the question 🙂
Oh, crap. I’m always in love with all of my leading men as Iwrite them. But Luca really got inside of my head and stayed there. So I guessI would say I have a soft-spot for him.
-Can you tell us about any future projects you’re workingon?
Right now, I’m working on IF YOU LEAVE. Then I’ll becontinuing work on the sequel to Of Blood and Bone. And then I’ll need to writethe sequel to Confessions of an Alli Cat.
-So in case people haven’t heard there’s an epic upon epicauthor event in Vegas this August that you (and I squeeeee!) will be at can yougive us some details? Will you have books there to buy?
*crossing my fingersshe’ll have Confessions of an Alli Cat
I can’t wait!! OMG. I will be there. And I think I’ll bringAlli Cat and If You Stay.
-Last question, you and I end up in a Vegas jailtogether…what did we do to land ourselves there?
Well, the opportunities on this one are endless, aren’tthey? I think it happened like this.
You and I decide to try our hand at blackjack while we arewaiting for M.Leighton to join us. While we’re trying to figure out the game,the dealer thinks that we’re actually trying to count cards. And since he’s sosexy, we decide that we’ll go along with that so that we can flirt with himawhile longer. Little did we know that they can press charges for doing that…something about fraud or something… so we end up in jail. But it was worthit. M.Leighton comes to bail us out and we live happily ever after with a greatstory to tell.
-Courtney, I want to thank you again for the opportunity tointerview you and I can’t wait until we can do Vegas like it’s never been donebefore and I’ll be good to go after an initial fan girling moment with you!
Holly, thank you for having me!! I can’t wait to see you inAugust!!
Courtney it was a pleasure, come back anytime!!!